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08:25am 21/07/2015
 
 
Shinga
I don't know what I ate or drank or took before bed last night but my dream got WEIRD. Like I woke up going "was this a movie I saw, or just want to see?"

In the dream I was a Korean girl, ALMOST sure it was North Korean but that part was fuzzy. I was young and my older brother had pressured me into this mail-order bride thing in order for us both to get to the US. It didn't quite work out in the "find a husband" part but unbeknownst to both my brother and I, the mail-order-bride service was a cover for the Korean government to secretly brainwash and train and experiment on these girls to turn them into super soldiers (unbeknownst to me because, you know, they erase that part of your memory)

So the mail-order thing doesn't work out, as I mentioned. My brother's mad that we didn't get to the US successfully so I run away and hide out at some all-girls boarding school or something. The government doesn't like that their super soldier just got away so they track me down there. Meanwhile I STILL have no idea, and am baffled when soldiers attack the school.

This is when a rogue soldier or ex-soldier or something from some other super soldier program (who looked like a young Schwarzenegger (yeah, random white dude in the Korean army, okay) like half the time but then just looked like another more believable human being) decided to help me out. He protected me while I slowly began to discover what I was, find clues that led me to find out about the super soldier project.

At the end of the day the rogue soldier helped out a lot and everything, but I realized my full potential and saved my own damn self.

Then I woke up.

And, as I said, went "... was this a movie? WHERE DID THAT COME FROM?"

I told Will about it. His response was "It's not a movie I'VE seen. But I totally WOULD."
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07:35pm 16/07/2015
 
 
Shinga


Upped my selfie game today.
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07:24am 08/07/2015
 
 
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I might not have a working laptop. Well that's a fan-fucking-tastic thing to wake up to.

Seriously if I lose this thing I can't work. This isn't fucking funny, universe.

Tried multiple plugs, two different chargers, it's the first time it's been on today so I doubt it's overheated.

I'm half pissed half scared. I'll try it again when I get home from my appointment but this is not okay.
 
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05:15pm 05/07/2015
 
 
Shinga
On July 3rd 20 years ago, my then-8-year-old little brother Addison was upstairs putting sheets on his bed before bedtime. He squeezed between his bunk bed and the open window. He reached for the sheet, missed, and fell backwards and out the window. He was hospitalized for a while, but survived with no lasting issues. So I threw him a 20 year celebration! :)

I printed out the skulls and wrote all the speech bubbles. I got eyepatch party favors because he had to wear an eyepatch for weeks after he was in the hospital (the head injury crossed his eyes for a while there) I googled a drink recipe called “Michael’s Downfall” (Addison’s first name is Michael… the drink turned out to be pretty tasty!)… my fiance-husband-thing made a “falling” themed playlist. I made cookies. I had the head wrap stuff ready with markers and people drew on it or signed it. We ended the night watching Big Hero 6 (he hadn’t seen it and, hell, the main song was sang by Fall Out Boy so it still fit the theme ;))

The shining moment, I think, is that I bought him a replacement stuffed cookie monster doll that was stolen in the hospital when he was eight years old. It was the necessary sappy moment of the night. :)

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06:21pm 24/06/2015
 
 
Shinga
It's been about four or five years since this happened but I literally just now realized that this one person who offered to hang out sometimes and go swimming together was actually hitting on me and not just offering a local workout buddy situation
mood: amusedamused
 
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03:33pm 23/06/2015
 
 
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Finally got pest control. Have seen a few spiders and wasps keep sneaking into our bedroom. Some guy was going door to door and I was tired of not having it done so I signed up for a 12 month plan. It's pricy but we have a decently big house so I expected it, and I might poke Will and Roq for help with later payments (this first one was hugely discounted so I'm not as concerned with that)

Yay, adulting.


Tonight I'm having Will help me look up some good dirt/mulch options online. Get started on kicking those flowerbeds' asses. First things first, weed and grass kill the shit out of 'em. Let that sink in for a while. Then get some good soil and mulch in. Then first things first, the HOA-required amount of shrubbery for our sized lot (yeah yeah HOAs suck, I get it, but I like shrubbery so I don't care)... after all that, THEN I handle things like getting some pretty flowers in there like I've always wanted. And god help me we need to find a cheap option for rocks to surround the flowerbeds with... it's RIDICULOUS that those sized rocks can cost like 100 bucks a pop. Screw that. I've checked Craigslist before and they often have cheap/free options for that so I'd rather do that, but only when I can wrangle some able bodies and a car to transport everything. :P

So, yay. Adulting even when sick. Extra adult XP when you do that.
 
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04:06pm 22/06/2015
 
 
Shinga
I've been sick since... Friday? Friday sounds right. So it's only been a few days but I'm really frustrated. I'm feeling "better"... meaning just different and gotten to the point of my sickness (at least from what I've observed of the other times I've been sick) where I'm just freaking exhausted. I have been sleeping on and off all day long. It means I'm close to the end, but it's still annoying. I've been getting a whole lot of nothing done for days now. Can't draw, too lightheaded and shaky. Can't really clean very effectively if I'm just going to infect everything I'm touching (also the lightheaded thing doesn't help)... hell I've even been sucking at video games, I just don't have the mental capacity. Even easy shit like Sims is iffy.

I just want this to go away. Dishes are piling up. Laundry needs to be done. Decluttering needs to be kept up with.

Ugh. Now to go back to probably another nap despite JUST having coffee (which of course tastes weird because everything tastes off right now, even the shit I normally love)
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08:38am 03/06/2015
 
 
Shinga
Looks like the record-breaking rain of May is gone, June looks pretty dry here so far.

I started a new commission special on Facebook and I'm kicking ass at it so far. I've stayed up stupid late working more than once. I have a feeling it's the new meds... it's kicking apathy out the door and letting my passion for work fire back up again. I'm hoping it stays this way.

So... I'm going good. Had one weird random crying spell a few days ago out of nowhere but otherwise I've not noticed too many weird stuff with the new meds.

Okay, back to work. Then therapy this afternoon, then party tonight. :)
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10:25am 26/05/2015
 
 
Shinga
Please let the death cramps be over for this month. I'm still bleeding after *checks* 12 days but that's a pretty common long period for me so whatever. But today I'm cramp-free so far and I would REALLY APPRECIATE IT IF IT STAYED THAT WAY.

Took advantage of no-cramps and did the dishes and cleaned the cat litter. Got a headache I'm trying to kick down.

I'm out of coffee so that's frustrating. Ordered more but it won't be here until, like, June 6th.

Need to make a grocery list soon. And this might be an actual grocery trip I can manage to make!

I've been out a handful of times in the last month or so but it's not often and I'm usually in pain there too so I'm kind of... half-there. It's meant a hell of a lot of cabin fever and loneliness and frustration on my end. There's only so much video games can do to keep me sane, you know?

On the bright side, pain let up enough yesterday to finish a couple of late commissions. Gonna try to so more this week and catch up.

Here's hoping.
 
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07:31am 22/05/2015
 
 
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Today I start on my new meds for depression and anxiety. Hopefully I rolled a nat 20 on this cocktail and soon I'll be consistently productive, confident, able to socialize more, able to talk openly with my partners more without crippling fear... all that good stuff.
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